Sailing Sunsets - A Serene Song
POSTED ON Mar 13, 2021 1:51:02 GMT
Post by Selene Merrows on Mar 13, 2021 1:51:02 GMT
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Any semblence of normalcy she had tried to perform seemed to shatter around her like delicate glass. Selene had put on a smile, she wanted the night to continue with their teasing jabs, just like normal. But it had now taken a turn. A turn that made her breath hitch in her throat. Her stomach suddenly felt queasy. She couldn't look anywhere but at the tablecloth, soaking in his experiences between them so many years ago.
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And yet, it was funny how things turned out sometimes. Though her hands quivered in her lap and her lips fought to frown, she couldn't help but start to chuckle... softly at first, and then louder as it mixed with her faintly crying. A shaking hand swept up to her eyes as she laughed and choked. "S-Sorry..." she gasped out, "It's really not funny, but... Life is just... cruel sometimes."
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Once she calmed down a bit, inhaling deeply to regain her thoughts, Selene closed her eyes. Her chest heaved in deep breaths before she finally reopened her eyes to stare at her reflection in her glass. "Growing up, I did not know how to express love." Her bottom lip quivered, but she held true. "My poor mother was always very sad, and distant after my father disappeared. And then Helio got hurt, and he too ran away... Life was hard for us. I had to take up my brother's job because my mother didn't want to leave her bed. Of course, I found out later it was because she was sick... I had to harden my heart or else it would break. I loved my mother, I truly did, but I did not want to hold or kiss her. I did not have a childhood. Eos was no help. She was bratty, and fought with me. I've always struggled to earn my sister's love, and I feel I still don't have it." Selene smiled softly and flicked her gaze up to him, just for a moment, to see his reaction. She let her eyes drop again before she continued.
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"And then, by some miracle, I met you. A friend that I had never had before. Someone to trust, to look forward to seeing everyday. Someone special to me like no other. And yet, at the same time, I was tasked with the challenge of being... a hero. It took... a lot of time for me to figure things out. And even now, I don't think I ever truly did..." Termina might have been saved, but did she truly do anything special? When it all came to a head, the only thing she felt she accomplished was talking down a sad, lonely boy from using a dark mask. She had no special powers. She held no special magics. What exactly made her special to be "chosen by the Goddess," was always left a mystery in her mind. Taking a breath, she continued.
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"I was dealing with many emotions back then. I was struggling to figure out how to save everyone. I was struggling to figure out why me. I was struggling with sorting out my emotions whenever I was with you... I had no faith in myself. I doubted myself. And yet, you... didn't. You always believed in me. If it weren't for you, I would have given up. Because of you, I pushed through and did my best. There were a lot of things you saw in me, that I didn't see. I didn't know what to call what I felt for you. All I know is that you made me the happiest I had ever been, the bravest I had ever been. But yet I was still so afraid. I tried to keep everything bottled up because I didn't... know how you felt." She chuckled softly. "It might have been obvious to everyone else, but I... would have doubted it still. If you were not there, telling it to me straight, I never would have believed anyone else..."
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Finally, she let her soft gaze fall onto him. She smiled sadly. "I learned about boys because of Eos. But she was a terrible example. There were many nights that I cried to her, asking her what to do... How to tell you how I felt. I still wanted to try and forge some sort of relationship with her, and so, stupidly, I followed through with her advice. She told me to make you jealous. That you'd finally be mine if I just did that..." Selene shook her head. "How wrong that was. I should have taken your advice to trust myself. But I didn't. And I thought... I ruined what we had. I saw you change. Your drinking, your sadness and anger... I wasn't sure I would be able to pull it together to face Majora. And after all was said and done, and you celebrated victory with Maude..." She hadn't meant to, but she spoke the departed's name with a light sigh. Selene could feel the tears threatening to slip down her cheek. "I was alone. I felt like I lost my love. And my best friend. Everything I had went through... It was so scary. It was hard. And after it was over, I was alone."
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A tear may have slipped down, but Selene quickly swiped it away as she turned her gaze elsewhere. Though shakey, she continued. "It was the darkest time of my life. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to be near anyone. I had to recover my mind, my body, my spirit. And it took a long time... But when we were in each other's lives again, all felt right. Even though you were with Maude... I tried to be happy for you. And I was happy for you. I could tell she really made you happy. And just seeing you happy was enough for me, even if it did hurt."
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Slowly, her shoulders began to shake softly as she whimpered, swiping once again at her eyes, "Love is just... messy..."
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Any semblence of normalcy she had tried to perform seemed to shatter around her like delicate glass. Selene had put on a smile, she wanted the night to continue with their teasing jabs, just like normal. But it had now taken a turn. A turn that made her breath hitch in her throat. Her stomach suddenly felt queasy. She couldn't look anywhere but at the tablecloth, soaking in his experiences between them so many years ago.
[break][break]
And yet, it was funny how things turned out sometimes. Though her hands quivered in her lap and her lips fought to frown, she couldn't help but start to chuckle... softly at first, and then louder as it mixed with her faintly crying. A shaking hand swept up to her eyes as she laughed and choked. "S-Sorry..." she gasped out, "It's really not funny, but... Life is just... cruel sometimes."
[break][break]
Once she calmed down a bit, inhaling deeply to regain her thoughts, Selene closed her eyes. Her chest heaved in deep breaths before she finally reopened her eyes to stare at her reflection in her glass. "Growing up, I did not know how to express love." Her bottom lip quivered, but she held true. "My poor mother was always very sad, and distant after my father disappeared. And then Helio got hurt, and he too ran away... Life was hard for us. I had to take up my brother's job because my mother didn't want to leave her bed. Of course, I found out later it was because she was sick... I had to harden my heart or else it would break. I loved my mother, I truly did, but I did not want to hold or kiss her. I did not have a childhood. Eos was no help. She was bratty, and fought with me. I've always struggled to earn my sister's love, and I feel I still don't have it." Selene smiled softly and flicked her gaze up to him, just for a moment, to see his reaction. She let her eyes drop again before she continued.
[break][break]
"And then, by some miracle, I met you. A friend that I had never had before. Someone to trust, to look forward to seeing everyday. Someone special to me like no other. And yet, at the same time, I was tasked with the challenge of being... a hero. It took... a lot of time for me to figure things out. And even now, I don't think I ever truly did..." Termina might have been saved, but did she truly do anything special? When it all came to a head, the only thing she felt she accomplished was talking down a sad, lonely boy from using a dark mask. She had no special powers. She held no special magics. What exactly made her special to be "chosen by the Goddess," was always left a mystery in her mind. Taking a breath, she continued.
[break][break]
"I was dealing with many emotions back then. I was struggling to figure out how to save everyone. I was struggling to figure out why me. I was struggling with sorting out my emotions whenever I was with you... I had no faith in myself. I doubted myself. And yet, you... didn't. You always believed in me. If it weren't for you, I would have given up. Because of you, I pushed through and did my best. There were a lot of things you saw in me, that I didn't see. I didn't know what to call what I felt for you. All I know is that you made me the happiest I had ever been, the bravest I had ever been. But yet I was still so afraid. I tried to keep everything bottled up because I didn't... know how you felt." She chuckled softly. "It might have been obvious to everyone else, but I... would have doubted it still. If you were not there, telling it to me straight, I never would have believed anyone else..."
[break][break]
Finally, she let her soft gaze fall onto him. She smiled sadly. "I learned about boys because of Eos. But she was a terrible example. There were many nights that I cried to her, asking her what to do... How to tell you how I felt. I still wanted to try and forge some sort of relationship with her, and so, stupidly, I followed through with her advice. She told me to make you jealous. That you'd finally be mine if I just did that..." Selene shook her head. "How wrong that was. I should have taken your advice to trust myself. But I didn't. And I thought... I ruined what we had. I saw you change. Your drinking, your sadness and anger... I wasn't sure I would be able to pull it together to face Majora. And after all was said and done, and you celebrated victory with Maude..." She hadn't meant to, but she spoke the departed's name with a light sigh. Selene could feel the tears threatening to slip down her cheek. "I was alone. I felt like I lost my love. And my best friend. Everything I had went through... It was so scary. It was hard. And after it was over, I was alone."
[break][break]
A tear may have slipped down, but Selene quickly swiped it away as she turned her gaze elsewhere. Though shakey, she continued. "It was the darkest time of my life. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to be near anyone. I had to recover my mind, my body, my spirit. And it took a long time... But when we were in each other's lives again, all felt right. Even though you were with Maude... I tried to be happy for you. And I was happy for you. I could tell she really made you happy. And just seeing you happy was enough for me, even if it did hurt."
[break][break]
Slowly, her shoulders began to shake softly as she whimpered, swiping once again at her eyes, "Love is just... messy..."
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I tried to make this emotional but I think I flopped? lol
I tried to make this emotional but I think I flopped? lol
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